So, it has been a while. There has been a lot going on here. Busyness and emotional stress and just the raising of 5 kids. When Micah's adoption was finalized I breathed this sigh of relief and thought, "It's done. We can breath now. Surely things will go well for a while. God does not give you back to back grief." So, yes, now I am laughing at myself. I forgot for a bit that God is in control, He decides what happens with our life, and He has every right to throw as many curve balls at me as He wants. I thank Him everyday that He is the one in charge of my life, not me. If it were me, I am sure I would have something much more catastrophic than a few curve balls.I do not think it would be wise or is the right time to go into details,but we have been forced to make sacrifices for someone's selfishness and these sacrifices will not stop anytime in the near future. It has been sad and painful and I have had to confess much anger and bitterness. I am so blessed to be married to a strong man who does not think and make choices according to emotions and is quick to keep me from making that mistake. He is quick to study Scripture and takes it literally and I am so happy to have him point me in that direction when I have to do things I am not excited about doing. The funny thing about all of this is that I can almost literally feel the maturity and growth that God is bringing about in me, and in all of my anger(which I am still confessing almost daily) and sadness I am so excited about that growth. If you all think about it, would you please pray for me, but especially my parents, sisters and their families.